just writing

So it's been a while ages since I write a blog in english. I don't really have anything in mind right now, I just thought that it would be nice to write blogs in English once in a while. So, here I am. Trying to put some scattered thoughts together and squeeze out sentences. lol

Come to think of it, I never really liked writing anything long and formal during my high school days. Checking grammars and punctuation marks was never my thing. When I have something on my mind, I'd just scribble away. I find it hard to write about stuffs that I'm not interested about but now I find it funny that I actually missed writing formal themes and essays with generic topics (just sometimes, duh?!). lol

I guess one thing that stopped me from writing blogs in english is that I'm afraid someone I know might actually take the time to read and dissect my thoughts. It's scary how messages can be wrongly understood, so I just used chinese as my primary language in my blogs. It's more comfortable and safe for me that way. haha I can blabber about anything and not care about the world. (cool for me~ :])

So I'm talking nonsense right now..who cares?
It's my blog anyway! haha
Maybe I'll write in english more in the future..or maybe not?
(enough blabbering...for today. lol)

心情随笔 2015.11.16

新工作还不到半年， 我就开始考虑找新的工作是不是很过分？
我也不知道为什么…我无法想像自己未来五年在这家公司有什么值得一提的发展空间。
发展空间不像面试的时候说的那么大…
同事之间的明争暗斗也让我很厌烦～
说到薪水也没有比之前的公司高很多…
工作环境是不错啦，但是少了我所习惯的“人情味”
目前留在这家公司的原因就只有一条：工作地点和工作时间。
这两样东西确实给我提供了很大的方便…
难道這就是我留在这里的最佳理由？
嗯…得好好考虑考虑…

不过现在还早…我答应我自己还有我的上司要用一年的时间好好考虑的。
做人要言而有信。我有我的坚持。
只是有时候考虑自己的年龄和能力，会担心再次走出社会还会有人接纳我吗？
现在会讲普通话／英语／闽南话／菲律宾话的人才比比皆是。
我一点也不特别…再加上他们都很年轻，漂亮…
哪会有人舍弃年轻貌美的人才而去接纳一个什么都不是的老女人呢？
好可怕的现实啊…

咳～～ 不想了！！还是好好工作吧～
搞不好，这家公司并没有我想象地那么糟。
只是我现在还看不清楚，公司为所有员工准备的发展平台和晋升空间。
现在只能努力工作，硬着头皮，拼啦！